Pikiran Yang Matang: Self-Reflection Through Perunggu's Music

A work of art often holds a million meanings and interpretations for every listener. Everyone has a different perspective when capturing implicit messages, figurative language, symbols, and the emotional subjectivity emanating from a song.

Through this post, I want to share a bit of personal reflection inspired by a song I’ve been listening to a lot lately: “Pikiran Yang Matang” (A Mature Mind) by the music group Perunggu. Line by line, these lyrics genuinely helped me when I was truly overthinking at 27 years old.

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Overthinking

Is everyone going through this, or what is overthinking really? Especially for guys, haha. We barely say ‘A’, but we’ve already mapped out plans from A to Z inside our heads—only to keep it all bottled up inside. Am I right?

Out of so many things on my mind, quite a few ended up turning into heavy, disturbing mental burdens. Overthinking turned me into someone full of regret, pain, and confusion.

Things originally outside our control end up consuming our thoughts. “Where did I go wrong?”, “If only I did this”, “If only I hadn’t done that”, and so on.

That state forced my brain to process every possibility simultaneously in a single moment—even when I didn’t know whether those things would actually happen or were just delusions in my head.

Thinking ahead and anticipating the future is indeed a good thing. But when done excessively, it only turns everything into anxiety and feeling trapped in uncertainty.

Through this writing, I want to document how I learn to let go of the burden of regret caused by overthinking, so I can grow into a more mature person without constantly looking back.

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Diving Line by Line into the Lyrics

Like those posts people make on IG Reels or Facebook: “When you’re happy, you enjoy the music. But when you’re sad, you understand the lyrics.” Kinda similar to that~ when we’re happy we enjoy the flow, but when we’re sad, we look for a relatable song to help us process the emotions happening inside ourselves. Isn’t that how it goes for you guys? Haha.

Okay, let’s get into the lyrics (according to my personal take, of course) haha.

Dinding yang mulai berjamur
Setengah dua dan kubutuh tidur
Isi kepalaku tak lebih penuh
From TransJakarta yesterday at dawn

From a body and mind getting exhausted due to hard work under poor conditions; knowing you’re tired, yet staying up late at night, losing rest outside work hours. So many mental burdens piling up that shouldn’t even be on your mind, yet they creep in anyway.

Mulai hari ini saja
Berhenti menyaksikan polahmu
Tak apa jika semuanya terlewat
Tak pernah berdampak penting bagiku

Well for this one, honestly, you don’t really need to be spoon-fed, right? You get what I mean, haha. To share how I interpret music through my lens, and as a productive medium to dump my overthinking into writing, so I just write it down.

Essentially, regarding things that cause my mind to overfill and spiral, disrupting my mental health, starting today I am learning to let go. Is it easy? It definitely takes time and conscious effort. But I will keep learning to release what is beyond my control. I am focusing on building stability, continuing to learn and grow, so that moving forward I make choices with clearer principles and greater wisdom.

This lyric is also a wake-up call, helping me move past my denial phase. It’s okay if opportunities pass by. Doesn’t everything that happens eventually bring something good for us?

And if something doesn’t happen, doesn’t that mean there’s something far better being prepared? Ultimately, whatever is destined for us will somehow find its way back to us, won’t it?

Hari ini tak lebih seru
Hari ini tak banyak terganggu
Hari ini oh biasa saja
Makin nyaman jauh dari drama

Days that once felt overwhelmed by constant distractions and exhausting dynamics have now shifted into quiet days that feel surprisingly peaceful. There is a sense of calm that comes when I choose to distance myself from drama, protect my personal boundaries, and let go of what was never truly meant for me.

Hei, aku tak perlu kenal dirimu
Atau membaca tulisanmu
Kuharap semua tetap begitu
Banyak yang butuhkan perhatianku dan
Hei, kau pernah sita semua waktuku
Dan tak kembalikan satu pun
Hidupmu biar kau yang tahu
Banyak yang butuhkan perhatianku

Why did I have to fall into such a deep hole of overthinking back then? Why worry excessively over things not guaranteed to happen? No need to spell it out explicitly, you can figure out what happened. The core essence of the Perunggu guys really shines here.

This song captures a reality many of us encounter: how our energy and time can be poured into situations where the reciprocation simply isn’t equal.

In the past, we may have invested our attention with complete sincerity. There are no regrets, because giving genuinely is a reflection of our own integrity. But maturity teaches an invaluable lesson: no matter how much energy you bring to the table, if someone doesn’t recognize your value from the start, you don’t need to exhaust yourself trying to prove it. Walking away with dignity from places where you aren’t valued isn’t a defeat; it is the ultimate form of self-respect.

Got carried away there, sorry! Back to the song: sometimes the stress I experience when overthinking affects those closest to me, making them anxious and confused. When I can make peace and let go of overthinking, I can be a better presence for the people around me. There are still many loved ones and real things that genuinely need my attention and care.

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Harvesting in Calm Seas

Di laut yang tenang
Dan pikiran yang matang
Dan semua umpatan yang kuredam
’Kan kutuai semua yang kutanam

After coming to terms with everything, it feels peaceful. It’s not fully about letting go or total detachment; I think everyone still remembers, we just choose to bury it deep so we don’t constantly dwell on it, right? And be grateful for the process so far.

I understand that when something doesn’t go according to plan, it doesn’t mean I am unworthy, but rather that a far better path is being shaped. It’s about maturing as an individual, focusing on building a meaningful future, and trusting that what is truly destined for us will never pass us by.

In calm seas and a mature mind, how we respond to life’s trials will determine what we reap. Now, it’s about focusing on being a good person for myself and those around me, and eventually, everything we plant, we will harvest.

Last but not least, big thanks to this blog and whoever reads this. Thank you so much for spending time reading my brain dump/thoughts, and to all my friends and loved ones who are always there on my journey. I am truly grateful to have you all.